Know what I did on this, the first Monday of my summer vacation?
1. I woke up (9:30)
2. Ate breakfast (peanut butter smash)
3. Went for a run (11:00)
4. Sat in various chairs silently while working on my pro-cert stuff (12:30-6:30). I’m so over that crap.
Yeah, me either!
The good part is that I have an awesome husband who supports me in every aspect of my life, so I have not been alone in the typing or tantrumming. He’s been there to hold my hand through it all. Awww… True love. <3 I'm SERIOUS! I adore him. We are fond of saying that while our kids are the best decision we’ve ever made, meeting one another is the best thing that has happened in our lives.
I want to point out two things about my run.
1. I am slow, JUST LIKE YOU. See those splits?! I used to be all worried about being fast, but for now, as long as I’m all sweaty and getting an aerobic workout I’m fine. My goals these days are to keep it under 13 minute miles. For me, this is still a push. Speed will come with time and I do have the odd mile or miles that end up between 9:30-11:00 minute miles, but I am no longer pushing for that. I just pushing for the calorie and fat burn.
2. I am having a mental block about running ever since I took my break last week. For some reason I feel like I don’t have endurance anymore and I keep wanting to quit. Today I made small goals- I just want to get around the small block (.9 miles) became I just want to get around the big block (1.4 miles) and then I decided I wanted to cruise the small block again to add another .9 which, of course, turned into the big block again. I came to a point where I said to Bradley that there is no good reason I should stop. I just needed to push myself a little harder. Guess what? I got home in one piece and ended up running 2.9 miles total. I could have pushed farther, but I’m lazy. Next time… Mostly I just want to recognize that my head is playing stubborn games again and I can’t let it win. I’m in charge and I say that running is not optional at this point in my life! It is a necessity for both my confidence and fat loss.
I do have to say, though, that since returning to running last week I’ve run every stinking day. As much as it’s been a challenge to do it, I have been making good on my commitment to exercise every day.
Now, I just need to get the night snacking back under control. Last night I ate two chocolate chip cookies, two Oreos and a bag of pop chips. This was at about 10:00, two hours after I had eaten a bowl of ice cream. Great choices in yum (and after my run I still was within my caloric intake window) but it felt like a binge and I didn’t like it. Especially since the rest of my day leading up to that was stellar. I’ll do better tonight. Cherries and popcorn…. 🙂
Hopefully fixing that will result in me losing some more weight. At my lowest a week and a half ago I was 229.8. This morning my scale read 235. Yup. I have PMS, humidity, water retention, muscle swell and all that, but seriously, that is five+ pounds. Not cool. Hopefully the night snacking issue will eliminate that problem.
(Side note- I’m complaining about weighing 235! Ha ha! For perspective- weighing 230 was my original goal. I think I’m doing just fine!)