I’ve been depressed. Not in a ‘woe is me- I want to die!’ Kind of way… More like I’m just waiting for disappointment. Waiting for failure. I’ve been feeling small and unimportant. I feel like I’ve been trying to fit myself into the lives of people around me rather than living my own life and it’s left me feeling empty. Yesterday I looked at my week and felt nothing but satisfaction and happiness. I realized it’s been several days since I’ve felt funky and realized that the difference is exercise. Straight up, organic, non-GMO, free, healthy exercise. I started running on Tuesday, forced myself into it on Wednesday and by Thursday I was hooked. Today was a breeze and I’m thinking that a streak is not out of the question now that I’ve got it rolling! I feel happy! It’s simply amazing how a little bit of blood flow makes me feel like a whole person again.
I talked with Bradley about how, while working out, and the aftermath of showering et all, takes time from my family, it also fills me up in a way that only I’m capable of doing through a solid workout. Without reliable movement, I’m crabby, cynical and depressed- not who I like to be at all. We both agreed that I need to continue this exercise streak. It’s the best interest to all involved!
We ran at Greenlake, again, today. I had a medal for my kids to earn… Yes, the Warbird 5k is a Trekkie thing, but my son just likes spaceships and if he’ll run a 5k with the reward of a spaceship medal then it’s on! He continues to amaze me that he has such great endurance, while she flew like a hummingbird around the whole lake! Sheesh! Zooming through life… I folded heaps of laundry, we BBQ’d hobo dinners (foil wrapped veggies + protein – green beans, garlic, potatoes, mushrooms, broccoli, zucchini, peppers, onions, butter, salt, a lil cheddar and tofu for us) and when the corn actually started to flame we decided that our dinner might be done! As a first, Guinevere serenaded us during dinner. It was a real grown-up moment and lovely day. Cheers for this trend continuing!🎉