I’ve been thinking and thinking about Tamara Shazam, this site. When I first started writing about my body project I was enthusiastic! Every thought I had was a lightbulb moment to write about. Every new discovery needed to be processed. Every success needed to be crowed about. I needed to create a living document to record my progress in order to believe that I really was creating my miracle.
And holy cannoli if this wasn’t a miracle. Is a miracle. If there was one thing I wished for in my life, one impossible problem I could solve it would be to lose unhealthy fat and actually be that healthy person I always wanted to be. It would be to wear a size 16 or smaller. It was to weigh less than 250.
Sometimes I still can’t believe I did it. I mean, at sometime you have to stop heralding the miracle to others, but I marvel every day at my body and fitness and protect it fiercely.
But I don’t want to write about it anymore. I love my blog- it became my life blood. My savior. It was here that I confessed everything. When everyone else had enough of hearing about my project I could shout it out here, I celebrated often and loud here, I confessed my deep darks, but more recently this became a job. I still love dancing and spin and lifting and running and eating healthy, but I also love crafting with paper, making books, drawing, gardening and hanging out with my kids. Each post takes at least an hour to write and it started to feel like a burden. So I’m officially pausing for a bit.
Not my health- no way! Like I said: I’m fiercely protective of my health and am still committed!
Loudmouth that I am, however, I will still be sharing my life, family, lifestyle and opinions over at Instagram. Connect with me there if you miss me. 😉
Ciao for now!
I’ll miss you. You inspired me to run my 1st half marathon, try the whole 30 & most of all not to ever give up on myself.
Thank you for all the words, work and inspiration.
You are an amazing woman!
You have been an inspiration to many, me included. Thank you for that.